Embracing Stability for 2022
It’s interesting how stability can often feel like stagnancy, at least for me.
One year ago, I was wrapping up 2020 and reflecting on time spent with my friend dedicated to my writing, and on what the year had been.
One year later, my life feels like a myriad of big ticket accomplishments:
I studied for and aced my LSAT
I applied to 6 incredible law programs
I spent a full year growing as a worship leader in my church
I got into my DREAM law program
Kingdom Books grew massively, taking on a myriad of incredible clients
…oh yeah, and I PUBLISHED MY FIRST BOOK!!!!!!!
And yet, even as I reflect on that joy, a part of me turns my eyes to the things I didn’t achieve. I haven’t finished - actually I’ve barely started - pulling together a solid draft of Book 2 (meaning my timeline for publication in 2022 is very tight). I haven’t established the sort of consistency I’ve desired in working out. And most damning, career-wise (my day job, not KB) I haven’t grown at all.
The end of the year is always an interesting time of reflection for me. Normally, I orient that reflection towards my writing goals, especially because for so long I was working towards this 1st book’s publication. After writing, comes my career goals. For Kingdom Books, this is a process filled with joy and excitement. For my day job this year, this came with an itching feeling of needing to shift gears, seek something new, bigger, better, to prove that I was “killing it” in every area of life.
I won’t list out my every thought process here, but I will say that I’ve recently shifted gears a little bit. Looking back over that list of accomplishments, I realized that I haven’t grown much in my career this year, that’s true. And because I didn’t, because it was a safe, consistent space, I was able to grow tremendously towards these other huge goals I’ve been dying to accomplish - and cross so many off the list. My job gave me the stability to shake up just about every other area of my life.
I don’t always do well with, or foster stability well for myself. It’s really easy for me to view any stability, and same-ness, as stagnancy, because I was born with that internal drive to always do more, bigger, better, non-stop.
This year, I don’t want to end the year challenging myself to be more, do more, grow more, change it all up, rock the boat, seek bigger and better, etc. etc. etc. I want to appreciate that stability, and continue to appreciate it. And maybe improve upon it with some consistency too, so that I can use that stability to keep achieving dreams in 2022.
